ShawnTYC:)

2011-02-08T13:48:00.002+08:00

hahaha a month since i updated my blog! HAHAH decided to update since i saw a siaozhabor(weien) tag to ask me update..

Well,life is the same every week or so....badminton basketball badminton basketball...everyday is jus repeating......6days badminton in a week...HAHA...

CNY was kinda great...chu yi night was spend in sean house, chu er night was spend in priscilla house as pris mum wan me join her in manjong game...chu san also in pris house...HAHA two overnight in her house...third consective overnight in xian house...

Sometimes we cant do anything but just to be envious of others...A month since we talk... sometimes some things jus reminded me of ue...but yea,i know ue will be enjoying every part of ur life with people ard ue...

2011-01-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

Am i a bad lover?

2010-12-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

its all about ue

every morning,when i woke,the first person that cross my mind was ue...but wat abt ue? someone else?....ya i knw,there is no doubt that there are others that might fall for ue...and i guess looks play a part in it as well...i knw i am fat and all those stuff...if i have a choice i wouldnt wan it this way as well....and perhaps there is btr guys out there...
if i could be ur guardian angel,watch ue and protect ue by the side...how wonderful it is...

Now that i have a very big question in my mind,its either a yes or a no?
my heart sink to the btm...

2010-12-03T22:56:00.001+08:00

Is there anyone who's still read my blog???
Competition is drawing but yet I didn't train at all. Doom

2010-11-23T12:16:00.000+08:00

argh...
haiz
is staying devoted a wrong choice?

i just cant take it anymore

2010-11-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

I wanted to help but I can't:(. I jus hope ue could get well sn.

Super super ultra sad:(.

2010-11-18T22:26:00.001+08:00

sadness of mine in exchange for that little happiness of urs......

sigh i jus felt super terrible now....
i cant say i am not fine...idk wat to say either...
i try to keep a dist from ue,at least ue would be happier this way...
and yes ue are happier this way,but wats wrong with me? i jus felt super terrible....i gt no idea wat to do...everything seems hopeless

2010-11-12T00:10:00.004+08:00

sian next week seems pack for me
mon-bb with peeps
tues-fico with 5n
wed-badminton? (not confirm)
thur-badminton
fri-bad and prom night
sat-badminton
sun-badminton

haiz...ue look super xing fu now...all i can was to stay aside..as far as i could...but i hate it seriously....

i have been living in agony after we stop talking....

2010-11-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

i guess this is no difference from walking out of ur life slowly...
sad,happy,worried,anger

2010-11-10T00:32:00.001+08:00

i miss ue,i really miss ue,i really really miss ue
sigh

2010-11-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

i hope ue didnt made a mistake.

2010-11-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

THADDEUS IS A ...... HAHAHA

i really miss ue alot

2010-11-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

ue think it actually help but seriously it dont...
ue are just hurting me more...
f... it...
agony

2010-11-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Shawn dun wanna regret, so he is nt stopping his love for ue

2010-10-30T11:24:00.000+08:00

I guess the distance between us is getting further apart. Ue knw wat I mean

2010-10-28T12:22:00.002+08:00

i guess a month have passed for that unforgetable date...
that fucking night which hurt the most..
i tried but i guess it wasnt enough..
eng and maths paper down...
there is still ard 9 papers to go...
sigh...
i guess being on the sideline will not be a bad choice afterall

2010-10-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

How I wish ue could get to see this, but I guess ue would never would
Imissyou, miss the those older times. But guess fear is all I got now.
I need a break now, studying is so tiring. And wats more is the amt of pressure that need to be handle properly
谢谢你

2010-10-25T10:10:00.001+08:00

If only you could understand, how important you are to me
But it's impossible.

O lvl starts today, mixed feeling though.

I looked at what you said, I asked myself, I blame myself

2010-10-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

i have decided,i think my heart made its decision..it have stop at this point...

2010-10-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

hi backed...guess these few days are really tiring...study is all wat i have been doing......i miss basketball...colours award was great,enjoyed myself

i can tell ue are really happy,although its like i do still think of ue at times but i told myself at least ue would be at somewher ,with someone ,spending ur time happily....

2010-10-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

O lvl practical is just 2days away and Eng paper is on mon.
Everything is just too fast
So many things but yet so little time

Are we jus strangers now?

2010-10-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

没有我在你的日子你显得快乐一点，是不是? :(

2010-10-18T14:47:00.000+08:00

希望你会懂

2010-10-17T21:46:00.001+08:00

ineffable

i just hope ue are fine:(

2010-10-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

i am trying

sick~:(

2010-10-16T00:28:00.002+08:00

ss consulation in sch,then self study and lastly basketball
sick and went to ball is like damn shiok...
something struck me deeply today...
i asked myself whether am i really cant afford to lose? in terms of everything

i guess have lost a few times...
one year ago,if wasnt for my friends i wont be here today...i cant afford to have any such thing again,i told myself....

i have seen things get from good to bad...wat more can i say?

i really regretted not able to focus well previously and now i am mugging like shit...having a ferver,fly and sore throat but yet still studying...this is life,face it

2010-10-15T08:53:00.000+08:00

I asked myself what I really wan
But I get no conclusion

2010-10-14T20:07:00.001+08:00

currently running a fever,down with a flu and sore throat..
:(:(:(:(:(

i wonder where are you,because my heart isnt with me but you

2010-10-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

How I wish we could talk more.

2010-10-12T19:35:00.002+08:00

Wat more can I say?
I knw ue are happy, should I feel happy or sad for that?
It jus simply hurts a little every single time.
Can't even really bring myself to smile.
Currently on the bus, I could only sigh for all these

太痛了，对不起，我爱你
My heart shall stop for now, and be become a heartless imbecile

2010-10-10T23:43:00.006+08:00

after so much things that had happen,i thought i manage to forget abt ue...but well i didnt....
getting ue off my mind simply is not easy...
tears fall ytd
i am seriously trying very hard
i am sorry

a big fat guy with no looks and brains

希望你幸福快樂

2010-10-09T07:44:00.002+08:00

i wonder who really understand how i am feeling now... ...
happy and sad? ... ...felt happy because my friends are all good...
how i wish anyone can listen to me now,i dun wanna keep everything to myself..i feel super uneasy...

To me,ue look super happy...while wat abt me? everything change... Getting back into old life is definitey not easy... sch alr ended for now,i wonder when will be the next time i can see you? ... i definitely misses you
sorry~,take care
tears:(

2010-10-07T17:47:00.003+08:00

time flies,a blink and tmr will be the last day of sch...lots of beautiful memories
basketball,badminton,friends,teachers... ...

every year i see myself growing,getting more and more mature... ...
Studying is wat i do now everyday, no time for slacking anymore....i guess time is really not enough for me... ...
i have been hurt deeply for that thing previously,i guess its not too late to start studying now......

ue used to sae ue wont but eventually ue still did.....

2010-10-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

Two words---------Thanks and sorry

If i am happier,i wont result in numbing myself everyday by studying
*sad

2010-10-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

i like you for your smile,
i like you for your positive attitude,
i like you for being so funny..

2010-10-05T21:50:00.001+08:00

i miss you!

2010-10-04T22:00:00.004+08:00

I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND!

These few days are definitely tiring due to studying and lack of sleep
o lvl is coming,4days left before study break

maybe this will be the best thing i can giv ue???
sometimes good friends are better off than couple:)..

this time gonna be different frm the previous one

i will work hard for this particular person...sweet
aww <3

2010-10-03T22:11:00.001+08:00

i will never forget that night...that night that make me go wild when ue told me that... ...
23/9/2010....

the most terrible and hurting night....

2010-10-03T21:38:00.004+08:00

went yuhua studying with jiahe and ys...haha cracking jokes throughout....:)....haha i make a crying sound and the uncle infront turn behind..haha super funny.....*198 driving past the three of us....jiahe-waa sian we miss two 99...yongsheng-got meh? jiahe-99 x2=198!....
HAHA

I am not being flicker minded, but jus... ...

i rather keep my feelings to myself because ue are in a happy state right now..:(

Because I knew all these would be nonsense to ue

love hurts....

2010-10-03T14:02:00.002+08:00

neng bu neng bu ai le,yi wei ai tai tong
wo tong de kuai si le,qua wu fa ba ni wang le

seems like its hard:(

2010-10-02T23:33:00.001+08:00

I really wanna see you smile for the last few times if it is possible;).

A small little portion of my heart will always reserve for you.
For now, I hope all I can think of is her! <3 she is super hilarious

2010-10-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

A little sacrifice for that happiness of yours.

2010-10-01T16:03:00.002+08:00

i wonder how would they react when they see it:)...

awesome day spent ytd,dinner then sparkles....

ai tai tong

2010-09-29T22:43:00.003+08:00

cool,dad bought me smth awesome today...gonna study hard to repay him.....

I THOUGHT I WAS STRONG BUT WHEN I SAW YOU, I BECAME WEAK:(

... ...
every morning i woke up,the first thing that cross my mind was you...
when i saw ue today,i have no choice but to turn away...inside my heart was burning....

2010-09-28T22:01:00.004+08:00

Study is all i wanna do now,if only i could stay focus and not to think of ...

ignorance is bliss??? i wonder

Sorry,i miss you
And i really wanna talk to ue~,can i?
All i have is less than 2 weeks...
i am really afraid to face ue now

2010-09-27T21:31:00.002+08:00

just wanna sae sorry to ue if i have make ue unhappy or pissed

badminton,bento,studying,dota,phy lecture....

i giv up when i stop breathing....

I AM SERIOUSLY TRYING VERY VERY VERY HARD TO GET UE OFF MY MIND....Ue are still my source of distraction....ue are everywhere in my mind....SORRY x100!!!!

2010-09-26T22:55:00.001+08:00

I am not gone and i quote i wont be gone... ...
i will be back after sometime...AFter all ue are the one i once love...

2010-09-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

broken heart,meaningless life

2010-09-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

hi backed:)...today was quite fun but very tiring...haha...aft sch,slack till rain stop before going hme....3 shawn shaun and sean took the same bus home...was chatting abt results,aim and courses of our choice...
Setting my target
L1r4:14

went home,com awhile jiu went down find jiachen they all at the playground...played with candles...then after that they started playing indian pokers...luckily i didnt play with them...damn gross ttm,the things they do...stepping on the path stone with carrying someone else on ur back and etc...hahaha funny....enjoy myself:)

there is no doubt but the only thing i will do is to engrave ur name on my heart and keep it for the following days ahead whether its sad or happy moments....

2010-09-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

well,sorry for all those previous post......All my post seems emo i know...sorry abt that...but well i will try to post more positively post

well today was quite enjoyable as well...sch was fine...aft sch slack inside class for quite long before going jp then hme...went jc house fr studying again..did a few eng qn and we started doing smth else again...then play monopoly with jc and ys as sam went hme alr....

tmr is alr mid autumn,time flies,its alr a year...
i have ard 30days,i hope its not to late to buck up at this moment

2010-09-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

sorry,i will watch wat i say....

well have fun today at jc house with xian lili and ys.....xbox,lying ard,mac delivery....viewing of girls profile-.-...and lastly homework...

awesome day~

actually wat ue said jus now did hurt me very deeply:(

2010-09-19T13:24:00.002+08:00

ahh fuck lah,why ue couldnt jus be like her? jus blame me for comparing then

at least she still concern

2010-09-19T00:48:00.001+08:00

com,pool,badminton,town,newurbanmale,bugis street,mac,home

tiring day~

ue are starting to fade because i am starting to miss her

fear

2010-09-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

you will be significant to me for now or in future if i am leave,but what will i gonna be to ue?

2010-09-15T22:00:00.005+08:00

well today its pretty a awesome day...bento session was fun but tiring though...went imm then jh house....waa it took us the whole day for everything...
bet the others have fun too...*clap clap*

well i am sorry...
far far away

ue jus admitted it by avoiding it...

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

2010-09-14T16:08:00.003+08:00

just wanna sae sorry,hope ue are not angry...

i jus wan a beautiful heart~
sad,ue are just too busy...

2010-09-13T22:07:00.004+08:00

back,went jp for movie today with jc lili jh tt and moon...went arcade for the big sweet land....then went to eat...went library to study then home....clar was super pretty!
damn,arms are aching:(

If you loved someone, you couldn’t let lies come between you. No matter what happened - even if you’d already lost each other forever - you owed each other the truth

2010-09-13T12:24:00.001+08:00

how i wish i wouldnt have to do so

2010-09-13T02:27:00.002+08:00

hi back...went training today...intensive...sparring again...nose bleed while sparring...erm tired...

these few days are so different frm the past:(

2010-09-12T10:54:00.002+08:00

hi back...as usual ytd srena for badminton...went hme and went jp find willy and sherlyn...slacking...bus around taman as we wanna send sherlyn home....then bus home with willy......

i need time to get over it...sorry

clinging

2010-09-11T08:33:00.004+08:00

Hi i am back!!!!! YAY!!! haha i am so energetic now!!!!.....jus got hme frm willy house...had a overnight stay..haha...erm half naked outside with ed outside his house waiting fr willy...haha shiok...erm...nothing much i could say...watch horror movie,then comedy...halfway fall asleep...haha...then the others went mac while i was alone sleeping...ate mac as they takeaway for me..then after dota with ed jh and willy till we left...haha over its tired but fun...having uncountable cough:(...

i hope ue will still rmb me when i leave, reminisce,remembering all the fun times we had tgt or in a group...SHAWN TAY YIEW CHIN will rmb ue,ALWAYS,in his memories....come on lets smile and cont kicking about:)

2010-09-10T15:55:00.004+08:00

haha backed:)...went ecp for bbq and overnight as well....cycling,slacking,chatting...All these things are simply awesome!
but yea i am very very tired as well....

sitting there alone,staring into spaces alone for an hours pls....thinking of what he(jc) said...i went into deep thoughts...tears...i kept it inside my heart,but felt so hurt.....ARGH!!!!!!!!!! should i sae it out rather than keeping it to myself???
i am fine...endless cough..haiz

i realise how lonely i am...
mixed feelings,sad,happy,angry,disappointment...

dear god,
pls clear all my doubts for me,i dun wanna be keep struggling...at least i giv it a shot but.....

2010-09-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

hope ue enjoy it,its jus smth simple:)...

hope its the effort and not the outcome that counts....:)

2010-09-06T19:32:00.004+08:00

she is still as funny as ever...i like it...
(someone else)

well,i hope ue are really enjoying ur life...:)
winsome smile from ue extraordinary meaningful
i guess i am to blame myself for all this while:)
but i shouldnot kept clinging as well, so...
at the end of the day i hope ue would appreciated it and rmb...:)...
it doesnt matter what position i stands in ur heart
at least now i tell myself i didnt regret anything...:D
able to love ue now is the best thing i can treasure currently:D

i am still asking myself,should i?? :/

well girl i miss ue..:D
<3

2010-09-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

looking at her face,i realised how sweet it is...tell me how? argh

2010-09-05T12:54:00.003+08:00

Just gonna stand there watch me burn
well thats alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there hear me cry
well its alright because
i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

well only time prove everything,mixed feelings....
how i wish i could be beside ue watching ue growing each day...
how i wish i could be stronger...setback...................
please,can i???
:(

maybe ue deserved someone better...

2010-09-03T23:35:00.003+08:00

ohshit,now i finally realised wats wrong with us...or its me...i hope its not too late...
i have never wanna to leave ue

wow seriously i need a long long rest...tired....

i hope i can treat ue better

I AM GONNA AVOID THAT....

2010-09-02T22:50:00.001+08:00

bad sore throat,head is spinning as well

hope ue appreciated it

yi dian shi wang

fear

2010-09-01T11:27:00.004+08:00

i am afraid....

i hope ue enjoy urself today regardless of wherever ue are or whoever ue are with....:)...smy

2010-08-31T22:26:00.002+08:00

Well ue are right,sometimes ue are sick and tired of everything...
well i admit its my fault all along bah..

Jiehauw-fang shou ye shi yi zhong ai

well i thought about it le,maybe....
okay...

i<3 you

2010-08-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

121210

feel so much better after saying everything out....

apoplectic

2010-08-30T23:38:00.003+08:00

i really really tried my best but i jus seems not to knw wats happening to ue
i am so so so tired...
i struggle hard to get back on my feets and now ue pushed me down the ground again..
yea ue are right the other time,maybe i shouldnt have compare...
i tried my very very very best to forget ue..but its seems to fail...everytime i see ue...memories and flashback is all i think of.....
i dunwan to end up like someone else
hope we are still good friends...

its hard to love someone...
i have been deceiving myself for so long,all i wan now is to just simply love you...*tears
i tried every way to make ue happy...failure and failure is all i had...

i remember years ago,
someone told me i should take caution,
when its come to love,
i did i did.
And you were strong i was not,
my illusion my mistake,
i was careless,i did
And now when all is done
there is nothing to say
you have gone and so effortlessly
you have won
you can go ahead tell them
Tell them all i know now
shout it from the rooftop
write it on the sky love
all i had is gone now
Tell them i was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what i hoped to be
impossible, impossible
impossible,impossible
Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
i know,i know
thinking all you need is there
building faith on love is worst
empty promises will wear
and know when all is gone
there is nothing to say
and if you're done with embarrassing me
on your own you can go ahead tell them

2010-08-29T11:32:00.002+08:00

dear god~
Can ue protect this lady now and forever?
Letting her to have all the best in life...

2010-08-28T15:27:00.000+08:00

am i selfish to cling on

2010-08-25T22:51:00.001+08:00

unexpected discovery, found something new today about you..nice...

that day is still long,i will still wait...Something that will be unexpected as well..hopefully

2010-08-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

Its like being shot a thousand times...let me self reflect where am i wrong at

2010-08-22T00:53:00.001+08:00

Am i asking too much as well?

2010-08-22T00:22:00.005+08:00

i asked myself whether do i really knw ue well?
hearing stories abt ur friends ard ue,they are good...wat abt me? i guess i treated ue bad all along..

really dun wanna leave ue,but its sooner or later...
shawn is not happy at all...
he hopes tat ue are happy without him in ur life.....
by ur side

mutual frankness is all i desire...tears...no longer wat, shawn will be faithful to ue..the one he loves the most

2010-08-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

The truth is always Cruel:)

:(

2010-08-19T22:07:00.005+08:00

Wo zi dao wo hen Ben
If only I can be smarter.
Sigh.

I hope, I crave, I yearn. I wish,tat ue are happy

seems like everything is fine with ue so yea...

i am sorry if i wrote something wrong here...jus personal feelings

hao nan shou
Hao Xiang ni

2010-08-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

All i have to do is to build up a strong heart

cant sleep well,cant eat well...

2010-08-17T16:14:00.001+08:00

Sad
Disappointment.
Never happy.
Ue are just like her, hurting me at tis critical moment.
Not motivated

2010-08-15T22:02:00.003+08:00

i have been repeating asking myself one question..something abt ue...but i still cant define my answer to it...

shawn is having a bad headache now:(

was previously asked by ailin whether to catch a movie tmr anot..but well i gonna skip it as i wanna do some studying....

if only ue...

2010-08-15T12:59:00.001+08:00

its definitely more difficult to keep urself awake then sleeping...
if i could go back and rewrite everything..

2010-08-14T23:37:00.004+08:00

sometimes guy are jus naturally sensitive..
thankyou for injecting me about wats true love is all about...
i am aware of it..thanks

badminton today...tired

no matter wat,i dun wanna leave ue

2010-08-13T23:21:00.004+08:00

Well,jus back frm passing my friend smth...waa sibei 'lucky'sia...saw mr edwin koh for dunnoe how many straight days..well alittle motivation talk frm him and yea he said everytime he see me i will be balling-.-...haiz i gonna focus and focus and focus......i will do my best now

i wanna pool:(

<3

2010-08-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

jiahe-its badminton not basketball-.- hahahahah

hi back...argh jus tired these few days....probably lack of sleep...hahaha....basketball and badminton(L)

2010-08-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

I guess its over~

i jus wanna be like a moon,lighting all the darkness moment of ur life
!~fool again

numb

2010-08-09T10:47:00.008+08:00

wherever ue are,
whoever ue with,
i just hope ue are happy:)
hope as ue said ue will live ur life to the fullest...
its doesnt matter whether its by the side or wat..so yea jus...stay happy and be happy...be back to when i first saw met ue...
well,thanks and sorry for the trouble all tis while;)
yeap,i did it all by my own will...its not troubling anyway...
if i haf concern ue too much jus go ahead and tell me...
friends...love....

Hi back...super tiring ytd...went xian house ate pizza watch ip man2 then head towards training....then to my house here der mac...then home.....
ltr going study with jc xian and ys bah...bye

true love doesnt ask for any returns
if i can,long ago i would haf given up on ue...but the problem is i cant...
sad*...

:"(

2010-08-08T02:12:00.002+08:00

satisfaction is the death of desire?

hey princess,dun be sad...cheer up girl:)

2010-08-07T12:18:00.003+08:00

things jus couldnt be control
ya perhaps its my fault again
sorry
well,those feelings ... ... is just there
i pray fr nth much,jus ue are sound and safe..
so what if i fail as a guy? sucks as a guy? at least i giv ue my best for now and in future....hahaha load of crap....

sorry i shouldnt haf posted tis....

the rest are secondary to me...

2010-08-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

i guess i would ... ...

2010-08-05T23:31:00.001+08:00

2010-08-03T22:01:00.003+08:00

hi

regret?

bye~

2010-08-03T19:43:00.003+08:00

ue are 'cute' hahahahaha

Someone actually ask me tis...why do ue treat her so cold?? ;o....maybe?but i didnt

its all about the heart not the person...something new
same boat but different experiences
its the qualities of the person....

2010-08-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

Since i make my promise,i will keep my promise...Two months is all i have?? Well after 2months it gonna be the starting of smth and ending of smth...starting of sort long term break and ending of... something....2months?? its neither short nor long....well yes defeated is nt the failure,failure is not trying....since 2 month is all i hav...if possible i wil treat ue with all i can...sorted it out...i am sorry if i posted something wrong here...

i really got alot to tell ue but are ue willing to hear it out...well i am sorry...if only actions can replace my feelings...

2months~

2010-08-01T00:30:00.004+08:00

Suspicious???
i haf only ue in my mind not her...

Sorry~..will promise not to use harsh words on ue EVER again...serious tis time....

i waited for ue the whole day....

surprised

2010-07-31T11:05:00.001+08:00

Now i realised something else...something tat ue are different frm the others...yea its good anyway(Y)(Y)(Y) :):):)...

2010-07-29T21:25:00.004+08:00

JIAHE- i will secretly train fr the kup frm behind!!! hahahaha wait for it....

do tell me if i am crossing the line by concerning too much abt ue...there is a certain limit even for friends...

its better to hide my feelings than saeing it out.....

True love begins when nothing is looked for in return
There is no remedy for love but to love more

if i let ue go~

2010-07-26T23:10:00.003+08:00

Counting down....71 days before Os.....
School is still okay for me??? ( wat abt ue?? :o)

Winsome smile...

i didnt make a mistake by loving ue...i make a mistake by not able to giv wat ue really wan...
Deluding myself?
Or do i really think too much....Okay stopped...

WOnder who still view my blog???
WORK HARD!!! ALL THE WAY!!

Will ue come out and enjoy with us after our Os?? i will absolutely looking forward to it...